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  1. First of all, that's awesome- it'll take a lot of work, but you can get there! I would also like to point out that while opportunities do come to us, as Ryan has said, we also make our own opportunities. As for building a corporation and making money, if you want to make AI and such at some point, well, software programming is a very high-income skill, and is also in high- and likely growing- demand in the future, so that would be a great way to start building up a company- of course, you could do it with anything, really, but programming likely makes the most money, if that's what you're concerned about. I would also reccomend learning about business and finances so you can get a head start on making the money and building that business ASAP. However, I would like to point out that this isn't a garuntee- you'll have to keep going and improving not only your business and knowledge, but yourself as well. I will add more soon, but I am tired, and it is getting late, and I would prefer to type on a keyboard, not my phone, for everything i'm going to say.
  2. Summary I offended the wrong person online- someone I thought was a friend- I didnt know why, I tried to fix things, and they called me a stalker, slandered my name, made me question my own sanity and events in the past, gaslighting and deleting accounts to cover their tracks, and they turned me into the monster they made me out to be. I became hateful, spiteful, got PTSD, held a grudge against trans people for a time because I found out a misunderstanding involving them being trans caused all that nonsense (I didnt know at the time it happened- only a while into the madness did i find out, and sadly, I tried to shame them for it.) 'Men and women are inherently different' is apparently VERY offensive, and not an observable, scientific fact. Because, you know, why not take it at face-value? Look into it as being as offensive as possible. They gave me trust issues, and broke me down, making me into a manic, insane, spiteful beast that could only shout how much I hated them. Literally. I'm not even exaggerating- I got hooked on revenge, ACTUALLY ended up stalking them out of hate, became obsessed with them, and much more. I got LITERAL PTSD- POST TRAUMATIC STRESS DISORDER- I blocked anybody that i thought could be them or their 'friends' on another account, and i got PHYSICALLY sick at the sight of their name- like i wanted to puke. It felt like everybody was on their side- because they had a little cult of 'friends' I was a part of for a short time. They twisted events that happened between us and made me hate myself, questioning whether or not they were right, and i actually *was* this horrible stalker they claimed I was. Somehow, in the end, I managed to use my hatred and spite to push myself out of there, and finally live my life again. It had to have lasted at least a year or so, and it still affects me even to this day. Ive mostly gotten over it- as much as I can. I'm not obsessed anymore, I dont care much anymore- they can go rot and burn for all I care- they don't matter to me, because they were *trying* to destroy me- so their words have no value. I have looked at it from their perspective- but that doesn't excuse their actions towards me, and other people. They were abusive, manipulative, and covered their tracks by deleting accounts I had messaged them on. If that doesn't completely discredit everything they say, I dont know what does. Everything they told me could be a lie. Even the personal abuse stories they told me. For all I know, those were used to manipulate me, making me trust them, and think that they really trusted me. This was years ago, and i've dealt with it- i'm stronger and happier now, but the paranoia and anxiety still haunt me to this day, in a way that is difficult to completely get rid of. Remember that person that was quiet, and i knew I was being clingy with? Their actions were the same ones that preceded that whole incident in the past. Suddenly being quiet after being super open and friendly, harboring some kind of issue and not telling me what I did, before lashing out and destroying me. I have a hard time trusting people when they say they like me, or when they say 'there is no problem' or they seem to be avoiding me. All because of that incident in the past.
  3. Has anybody made a proper "link chart" or timeline for the series? (Think of the usual detective's bulletin board with pictures of suspects and evidence pinned up, and red yarn 'linking' people and events together. If you don't know what i'm talking about, just google image "Detective's Link Chart" and you'll see what I mean). I was thinking of making one, and trying to fit a bunch of the things together so we can keep track of it all. I'm gonna go full Matpat "Game Theory" on this... stuff. But THAT'S just a theory- A DETECTIVE THEORY! Thanks for suspecting! XD
  4. So, i've been rather busy (and lazy, lol) and haven't had too much time to sit down and practice writing lyrics or music, so I looked up some tips and advice on how to write better lyrics, and what I can do. One source I found said that getting into writing poetry would be a good idea, as that's basically what songs are without the music. it lets you focus on improving your lyrics writing, without worrying about fitting it well to music or melody. It also said writing about things you didn't care too much about would be a good idea to start with, as that way you don't have the pressure of writing something really good because you care about the topic- it allows you to just write more crap so you know what to actually do when you have a serious topic. What do you guys think of that advice? is it good? bad? do you have anything to add? PS: apparently, i'm already writing lyrics and i wasn't even trying, lol. ^^^
  5. I'm a much better person than I used to be. I used to be extremely insecure, unable to help myself, desperate, clingy, and extremely depressed. Over the past year or two i've grown stronger, however, i'm not strong enough yet. I still falter, and fall, and have moments of relapse, but I manage to bounce back because I keep fighting. I'm far more positive, kind, and understanding than I used to be, but i'm not quite there yet. Like with my friend before, I may have seemed somewhat calm and understanding, but before all that, there were my emotions. I'm still emotionally reckless when problems occur- I say mean things, and I can get very upset and emotional. Though these little moments are nowhere near as bad they used to be, they still cause problems, of course. I've gotten enough control to mix in my intentions with my anger most of the time, but that's just not good enough. In fact, I wonder if it may even make things worse. I fear that to those who have seen both sides of me- and aren't very close to me- I may seem unstable, or fake, putting on some 'nice-guy' mask while really being angry, bitter, and manipulative inside. Who would trust a guy like that?- I could snap at the drop of a hat- Who knows what I'm hiding behind all those kind words I say, when I can easily get spiteful when things don't go my way? I can let things go easier than before, but when my efforts to do good (specifically, with my own problems) get me nowhere, I can't help but get frustrated, or even angry for a bit, before I go back to being thoughtful and figuring things out. The problem is, I'm just not good enough yet. I don't get angry quite as easily as I used to, but I don't want to get angry before I understand people and their actions. I want to be someone everybody can love. I want to be someone who can understand where people are coming from without even hesitating- someone that can always be kind no matter what, and do the right thing every single time... So why is it so hard for me to act that way..? It's as if there's a limit to how well I can understand other people's thoughts and actions. At some point down the line of understanding, it just becomes a mystery to me again, and I don't know how to handle things...
  6. I... still don't know how to handle this person... They clearly like me, I know that much, but if I've done something to upset them, they won't ever tell me what it is. I'm tired of some people saying "try introspection, it's not always their fault theyre ignoring you" or something stupid like that. Because, if they dont tell me what I did that upsets them, how am I supposed to know how to fix it? As i once stated before- they were very open to talk to me at first, and then I must have done something they wouldn't tell me about, that upset them, because it was a very sudden change. Using a few tricks I learned from Les giblin got them to open up slightly, but just for that moment. I want to help them, and be their friend, and get closer to them again, but... How can I handle this person, and get them to open up? I've tried being kind, and being blunt, and a bunch of things- but I dont seem to ever make much progress. At least, that's how it feels... I just want to be able to interact with them better, and help them. What do I do..?
  7. So I had talked about my new online friend before- how they seemed a bit paranoid, and they were very quiet, and afraid of upsetting others? Well... There's a been a bit of a development. I've been trying to figure out how to explain this, but i've just had to settle with this. To keep things somewhat short (i guess?)- i've found out we both have very troubling 'attachment styles'- how secure we are, and how we act in relationships. There are several kinds, but only mine and my friend's matters for now- That is, 'Anxious' and 'Fearful-Avoidant' respectively (maybe 'dismissive-avoidant?) I am the anxious type- pretty self-explanatory, (though I've gotten much better about it). One thing to note is that both of our attachment styles are extremely sensitive to inconsistencies or details in a relationship. She, on the other hand, is much like a tortoise. They (obviously) want to just be themselves, and be accepted in their environment, but they are also hypersensitive. They seek to fill their emotional needs, but fear getting too close, and though they reach out to explore, they widthdraw at the slightest hint of danger, or intimacy. It's constantly a game of "Come closer! No, no, not that close!! But- but wait!- come back! But NO! Get away... It's scary..." The only way i found out they actually LIKED me, was by cutting contact. Their lack of communication triggered my anxiety, and I became obsessed. I figured the only way to truly solve this was to leave them. In a sense, it may have been, as THEY FINALLY REACHED OUT TO ME IN A FIT OF CONFUSION- Supposedly, I was THE LAST person they expected to leave them- (I'll take the compliment- but that might have just made it hurt them more...) I expected this leave to be permanent, but they then followed again me on social media first, clearly wanting to keep me around. (Again with the push-and-pull "come back!- okay, that's close enough, now stay there!") Up until this point, I had NO DANG CLUE what they thought of me, or wanted from me, since they stopped talking to me. I explained my anxious 'obsession' and that they were a great person, and it's been silence since then- the norm, really. Nothing strange about that anymore... They obviously have some fears and worries about becoming even slightly intimate or vulnerable, but being hypersensitive to criticism makes it hard to tell them 'you need to change.' I've tried to ask them to just *tell me* what they need, what their boundaries are, but they just dont talk. (Not only to me, but to most people as well. And they aren't just quiet by nature- they've actively avoided most things even slightly 'personal' or anything relating to even small problems.) I've found lots of info about both of our attachment styles in a playlist on youtube. I've thought about sharing it with them, as it may help them realize and begin to act on it, but obviously there's many things that may be wrong with that decision. I... have no clue what to do..... Every potential solution to this problem has the potential to wound them further, so i'm kindof stuck between a rock and a hard place... Should I show them the videos I found? What if they're too ashamed, or sensitive, or afraid to actually take action..? (P.S. Though the videos talked about dating, it still applies. Dating or not, the principles of handling said attachment type still apply.) Sorry for the long post! I'm terrible at explaining things...
  8. I'm 18 years old, and in college. I still live with my parents for now, and I don't know when that will change. I feel so lost and hopeless. I'm trying to work towards a carreer in psychology, but I don't even feel like doing that anymore. The college i'm currently at basically forces me to take a bunch of math classes before I can get to do anything psychology related. I'm currently in algebra, again, and I've skipped class for the past two weeks... There's no point in learning if I can't begin to understand it. They may as well be teaching a fish to fly- you can teach all you want, but without wings to practice with, your words are useless. And I just can't begin to practice at all. On top of that, i'm still unemployed, despite a bit of pressure from my parents to just 'get some experience'. I feel so bad about everything I do- I'm so scared, and unmotivated, and I'm tired of doing things that only get me nowhere, and i'm tired of working and not getting anything in return. I'm going to be transferring to a college where I dont have to do all that math, but I just don't even care anymore. Any desire I had, or passion for psychology has long since burnt out under the weight of so many failed math classes, so many failed attempts to move forwards. Not to mention the absurd amount of classes needed for one stupid sheet of paper that says 'you puked up all the info we gave for five years straight! Well done!" ...I have no desire to do anything. I dont want to go ask an academic advisor for a few things to transfer, like mom asks me to. You'd think i'd be excited, right? Being able to finally make some progress towards what I've wanted? ....I couldn't care less. The trouble of going through the process just doesnt seem worth it. I'm so scared of failure.. I dont know what to do.. im so lost, and hopeless, and it feels like theres no point to me doing anything, and I can't find the willpower to go to the college, let alone *try* and understand that stupid math class... Im so scared of failure and being on my own, and I have nobody in real life to help me with any of this... "I see, i'm scared... I'm scared this will fall, a part of me... Still believes we're meant to dream..."
  9. Hey guys! I was wondering if any of you played Warframe for PC? If so, why not reply with your username, or send a friend request in-game so we can play together? My username is the same as it is here: ScienceRocks! i'm a little new to the game, as i'm only Mastery Rank 5, and still learning some of the mechanics, but It's pretty fun! Thank you, and I hope you all have a great day!
  10. As a continuation of my last question, with my 'friend'... TLDR; My 'friend' is treating someone else like they treated me, with eagerness, and friendliness- and what i now realize is also them being very clingy- and now they're treating me with almost a sort of contempt. They aren't a bad person, just longing for a relationship, but I can't help but feel angry at being used and disposed of, just easily tossed aside without being consulted, and replaced by another person. I thought I was fairly good friends with them... It makes me feel physically sick, as this has happened to me many times before... I'm hurt, and I'm tired of being tossed aside after a false relationship. I want this time to be different. I want to believe in them, but... I don't know what to do... I can't yell at them- they're overly-sensitive to criticism- but I cant stop being upset, either.. This is the fifth time something like this has happened to me... I'm absolutely sick of it. A part of me wants to hate them, but another part of me still wants to be their friend... "Keep strong your unsuspecting heart.... all these vengeful thoughts only add to the madness..."
  11. I mean it in a good way, of course! lol. It sounds like the kind of thing that would play to some scene in a game or a show or something- it kinda feels intense, like i need to be in a hurry,, in some awesome, dramatic situation. That's what it makes me think of, anyways. I love it! I'm totally going to listen to this more when I play video games or something! (edit): Oh! that's what I was gonna say- it feels like something is about to come to a close, or an epic finale!
  12. It had been a while since I listened to "A Message To Pop Culture" and I had forgot how awesome it was! It really does have a great message to it- especially nowadays, it's more prevalent than ever for people to think for themselves, and not be controlled or influenced by the world that tries to manipulate them. What a great message to put into a song! Keep up the good work, Joe!
  13. Woah, awesome song! For being a different style to what you normally do, you did an awesome job! It has a very... dramatic ambiance, I guess I would say? it sounds awesome! Keep it up! Also, you nailed that song title!
  14. This is a question that's more for a friend of mine, than myself. So, basically, i made a new friend online not too long ago, and they were really nice, but also very emotional, and easily upset (in a depressive way.) They have trouble confiding in friends, and don't talk about their problems very often, if at all. They were very nice and eager to talk to me for a while, but recently they almost completely stopped talking to me, save for the occasional comment. They do seem to be aware of their paranoia and mood swings, but when I asked if they have seen a psychologist, they refused to talk about it. Personally, I think it's more than just some simple paranoia. Rather, I believe they have Paranoid Personality Disorder, though I don't know if they know. They seem to have depression of some kind as well, and they tend to blame themselves for every little negative thing that they're involved in. I want to talk to them again, and I want to help them, too. I care about them, but I don't know what to do about a situation like this unless they tell me what they're thinking... I've tried messaging them several times, but they've always left me on read, with no response. I'm at a loss for what to do- Ironic, considering the fact i'm studying psychology, lol... any advice..?
  15. Quite frankly, I hate math with a passion i cannot express in 'child-friendly' words. To be more specific, I hate algebra. I've tried calculus in the past, and It just doesnt work, either, but right now... I've just started an algebra class for like the third time, and quite frankly, i'm absolutely sick of it. It gives me nothing to work with, and nothing to generate answers from, unlike statistics, which makes sense. This is probably the third time i've had to take this stupid class, and i'm already struggling with the very basics. AGAIN. I've had so much trouble in the past that i've developed some kind of PTSD regarding this stuff- i'm already annoyed when i sit down, and i can stay calm for a while, but once I get the problem on paper... I have no idea where to go from there, and I basically have an emotional meltdown because I can never get a straight answer from anything on how to do it. No matter how many times I tke it, or have it explained to me, it just doesn't work, yet it's REQUIRED to get a job in the psychology field (cause the domain of f(x)='You're crazy!' after all! Didn't you know that?! Man, it's so useful in this person-focused field!) I'm pretty sure I cant just go freelancer like you can with music, because this field is regulated.. Please. What should I do? I'm tired of trying and failing and being frustrated and stuck... But I have no choice, unless I want to get a different job... This is the kind of thing that sends me into a spiral of depression, yet i'm forced to suffer through it...
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