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  1. So, i've been rather busy (and lazy, lol) and haven't had too much time to sit down and practice writing lyrics or music, so I looked up some tips and advice on how to write better lyrics, and what I can do. One source I found said that getting into writing poetry would be a good idea, as that's basically what songs are without the music. it lets you focus on improving your lyrics writing, without worrying about fitting it well to music or melody. It also said writing about things you didn't care too much about would be a good idea to start with, as that way you don't have the pressure of writing something really good because you care about the topic- it allows you to just write more crap so you know what to actually do when you have a serious topic. What do you guys think of that advice? is it good? bad? do you have anything to add? PS: apparently, i'm already writing lyrics and i wasn't even trying, lol. ^^^
  2. I'm a much better person than I used to be. I used to be extremely insecure, unable to help myself, desperate, clingy, and extremely depressed. Over the past year or two i've grown stronger, however, i'm not strong enough yet. I still falter, and fall, and have moments of relapse, but I manage to bounce back because I keep fighting. I'm far more positive, kind, and understanding than I used to be, but i'm not quite there yet. Like with my friend before, I may have seemed somewhat calm and understanding, but before all that, there were my emotions. I'm still emotionally reckless when problems occur- I say mean things, and I can get very upset and emotional. Though these little moments are nowhere near as bad they used to be, they still cause problems, of course. I've gotten enough control to mix in my intentions with my anger most of the time, but that's just not good enough. In fact, I wonder if it may even make things worse. I fear that to those who have seen both sides of me- and aren't very close to me- I may seem unstable, or fake, putting on some 'nice-guy' mask while really being angry, bitter, and manipulative inside. Who would trust a guy like that?- I could snap at the drop of a hat- Who knows what I'm hiding behind all those kind words I say, when I can easily get spiteful when things don't go my way? I can let things go easier than before, but when my efforts to do good (specifically, with my own problems) get me nowhere, I can't help but get frustrated, or even angry for a bit, before I go back to being thoughtful and figuring things out. The problem is, I'm just not good enough yet. I don't get angry quite as easily as I used to, but I don't want to get angry before I understand people and their actions. I want to be someone everybody can love. I want to be someone who can understand where people are coming from without even hesitating- someone that can always be kind no matter what, and do the right thing every single time... So why is it so hard for me to act that way..? It's as if there's a limit to how well I can understand other people's thoughts and actions. At some point down the line of understanding, it just becomes a mystery to me again, and I don't know how to handle things...
  3. I... still don't know how to handle this person... They clearly like me, I know that much, but if I've done something to upset them, they won't ever tell me what it is. I'm tired of some people saying "try introspection, it's not always their fault theyre ignoring you" or something stupid like that. Because, if they dont tell me what I did that upsets them, how am I supposed to know how to fix it? As i once stated before- they were very open to talk to me at first, and then I must have done something they wouldn't tell me about, that upset them, because it was a very sudden change. Using a few tricks I learned from Les giblin got them to open up slightly, but just for that moment. I want to help them, and be their friend, and get closer to them again, but... How can I handle this person, and get them to open up? I've tried being kind, and being blunt, and a bunch of things- but I dont seem to ever make much progress. At least, that's how it feels... I just want to be able to interact with them better, and help them. What do I do..?
  4. So I had talked about my new online friend before- how they seemed a bit paranoid, and they were very quiet, and afraid of upsetting others? Well... There's a been a bit of a development. I've been trying to figure out how to explain this, but i've just had to settle with this. To keep things somewhat short (i guess?)- i've found out we both have very troubling 'attachment styles'- how secure we are, and how we act in relationships. There are several kinds, but only mine and my friend's matters for now- That is, 'Anxious' and 'Fearful-Avoidant' respectively (maybe 'dismissive-avoidant?) I am the anxious type- pretty self-explanatory, (though I've gotten much better about it). One thing to note is that both of our attachment styles are extremely sensitive to inconsistencies or details in a relationship. She, on the other hand, is much like a tortoise. They (obviously) want to just be themselves, and be accepted in their environment, but they are also hypersensitive. They seek to fill their emotional needs, but fear getting too close, and though they reach out to explore, they widthdraw at the slightest hint of danger, or intimacy. It's constantly a game of "Come closer! No, no, not that close!! But- but wait!- come back! But NO! Get away... It's scary..." The only way i found out they actually LIKED me, was by cutting contact. Their lack of communication triggered my anxiety, and I became obsessed. I figured the only way to truly solve this was to leave them. In a sense, it may have been, as THEY FINALLY REACHED OUT TO ME IN A FIT OF CONFUSION- Supposedly, I was THE LAST person they expected to leave them- (I'll take the compliment- but that might have just made it hurt them more...) I expected this leave to be permanent, but they then followed again me on social media first, clearly wanting to keep me around. (Again with the push-and-pull "come back!- okay, that's close enough, now stay there!") Up until this point, I had NO DANG CLUE what they thought of me, or wanted from me, since they stopped talking to me. I explained my anxious 'obsession' and that they were a great person, and it's been silence since then- the norm, really. Nothing strange about that anymore... They obviously have some fears and worries about becoming even slightly intimate or vulnerable, but being hypersensitive to criticism makes it hard to tell them 'you need to change.' I've tried to ask them to just *tell me* what they need, what their boundaries are, but they just dont talk. (Not only to me, but to most people as well. And they aren't just quiet by nature- they've actively avoided most things even slightly 'personal' or anything relating to even small problems.) I've found lots of info about both of our attachment styles in a playlist on youtube. I've thought about sharing it with them, as it may help them realize and begin to act on it, but obviously there's many things that may be wrong with that decision. I... have no clue what to do..... Every potential solution to this problem has the potential to wound them further, so i'm kindof stuck between a rock and a hard place... Should I show them the videos I found? What if they're too ashamed, or sensitive, or afraid to actually take action..? (P.S. Though the videos talked about dating, it still applies. Dating or not, the principles of handling said attachment type still apply.) Sorry for the long post! I'm terrible at explaining things...
  5. I'm 18 years old, and in college. I still live with my parents for now, and I don't know when that will change. I feel so lost and hopeless. I'm trying to work towards a carreer in psychology, but I don't even feel like doing that anymore. The college i'm currently at basically forces me to take a bunch of math classes before I can get to do anything psychology related. I'm currently in algebra, again, and I've skipped class for the past two weeks... There's no point in learning if I can't begin to understand it. They may as well be teaching a fish to fly- you can teach all you want, but without wings to practice with, your words are useless. And I just can't begin to practice at all. On top of that, i'm still unemployed, despite a bit of pressure from my parents to just 'get some experience'. I feel so bad about everything I do- I'm so scared, and unmotivated, and I'm tired of doing things that only get me nowhere, and i'm tired of working and not getting anything in return. I'm going to be transferring to a college where I dont have to do all that math, but I just don't even care anymore. Any desire I had, or passion for psychology has long since burnt out under the weight of so many failed math classes, so many failed attempts to move forwards. Not to mention the absurd amount of classes needed for one stupid sheet of paper that says 'you puked up all the info we gave for five years straight! Well done!" ...I have no desire to do anything. I dont want to go ask an academic advisor for a few things to transfer, like mom asks me to. You'd think i'd be excited, right? Being able to finally make some progress towards what I've wanted? ....I couldn't care less. The trouble of going through the process just doesnt seem worth it. I'm so scared of failure.. I dont know what to do.. im so lost, and hopeless, and it feels like theres no point to me doing anything, and I can't find the willpower to go to the college, let alone *try* and understand that stupid math class... Im so scared of failure and being on my own, and I have nobody in real life to help me with any of this... "I see, i'm scared... I'm scared this will fall, a part of me... Still believes we're meant to dream..."
  6. Hey guys! I was wondering if any of you played Warframe for PC? If so, why not reply with your username, or send a friend request in-game so we can play together? My username is the same as it is here: ScienceRocks! i'm a little new to the game, as i'm only Mastery Rank 5, and still learning some of the mechanics, but It's pretty fun! Thank you, and I hope you all have a great day!
  7. As a continuation of my last question, with my 'friend'... TLDR; My 'friend' is treating someone else like they treated me, with eagerness, and friendliness- and what i now realize is also them being very clingy- and now they're treating me with almost a sort of contempt. They aren't a bad person, just longing for a relationship, but I can't help but feel angry at being used and disposed of, just easily tossed aside without being consulted, and replaced by another person. I thought I was fairly good friends with them... It makes me feel physically sick, as this has happened to me many times before... I'm hurt, and I'm tired of being tossed aside after a false relationship. I want this time to be different. I want to believe in them, but... I don't know what to do... I can't yell at them- they're overly-sensitive to criticism- but I cant stop being upset, either.. This is the fifth time something like this has happened to me... I'm absolutely sick of it. A part of me wants to hate them, but another part of me still wants to be their friend... "Keep strong your unsuspecting heart.... all these vengeful thoughts only add to the madness..."
  8. I mean it in a good way, of course! lol. It sounds like the kind of thing that would play to some scene in a game or a show or something- it kinda feels intense, like i need to be in a hurry,, in some awesome, dramatic situation. That's what it makes me think of, anyways. I love it! I'm totally going to listen to this more when I play video games or something! (edit): Oh! that's what I was gonna say- it feels like something is about to come to a close, or an epic finale!
  9. It had been a while since I listened to "A Message To Pop Culture" and I had forgot how awesome it was! It really does have a great message to it- especially nowadays, it's more prevalent than ever for people to think for themselves, and not be controlled or influenced by the world that tries to manipulate them. What a great message to put into a song! Keep up the good work, Joe!
  10. Woah, awesome song! For being a different style to what you normally do, you did an awesome job! It has a very... dramatic ambiance, I guess I would say? it sounds awesome! Keep it up! Also, you nailed that song title!
  11. This is a question that's more for a friend of mine, than myself. So, basically, i made a new friend online not too long ago, and they were really nice, but also very emotional, and easily upset (in a depressive way.) They have trouble confiding in friends, and don't talk about their problems very often, if at all. They were very nice and eager to talk to me for a while, but recently they almost completely stopped talking to me, save for the occasional comment. They do seem to be aware of their paranoia and mood swings, but when I asked if they have seen a psychologist, they refused to talk about it. Personally, I think it's more than just some simple paranoia. Rather, I believe they have Paranoid Personality Disorder, though I don't know if they know. They seem to have depression of some kind as well, and they tend to blame themselves for every little negative thing that they're involved in. I want to talk to them again, and I want to help them, too. I care about them, but I don't know what to do about a situation like this unless they tell me what they're thinking... I've tried messaging them several times, but they've always left me on read, with no response. I'm at a loss for what to do- Ironic, considering the fact i'm studying psychology, lol... any advice..?
  12. Quite frankly, I hate math with a passion i cannot express in 'child-friendly' words. To be more specific, I hate algebra. I've tried calculus in the past, and It just doesnt work, either, but right now... I've just started an algebra class for like the third time, and quite frankly, i'm absolutely sick of it. It gives me nothing to work with, and nothing to generate answers from, unlike statistics, which makes sense. This is probably the third time i've had to take this stupid class, and i'm already struggling with the very basics. AGAIN. I've had so much trouble in the past that i've developed some kind of PTSD regarding this stuff- i'm already annoyed when i sit down, and i can stay calm for a while, but once I get the problem on paper... I have no idea where to go from there, and I basically have an emotional meltdown because I can never get a straight answer from anything on how to do it. No matter how many times I tke it, or have it explained to me, it just doesn't work, yet it's REQUIRED to get a job in the psychology field (cause the domain of f(x)='You're crazy!' after all! Didn't you know that?! Man, it's so useful in this person-focused field!) I'm pretty sure I cant just go freelancer like you can with music, because this field is regulated.. Please. What should I do? I'm tired of trying and failing and being frustrated and stuck... But I have no choice, unless I want to get a different job... This is the kind of thing that sends me into a spiral of depression, yet i'm forced to suffer through it...
  13. So music isn't exactly my life's passion, however, I'm passionate about music and the songs I listen to, though I don't know much about the technicalities. I've played the violin before, so I know the basics, though it has been quite a while. I'm not sure if there is much about reading music that I don't know- aside from other instrument-specific things. A lot of the music terms and symbols seem to be fairly self-explanatory (though i may not know all the 'proper' names of them, lol.) When it comes to writing music, though... I've never done it before. I'm not exactly the most creative person, either, but Ryan has inspired me to want to at least try to make something. I feel like some of it is just common sense, in terms of how it sounds, but I don't know much else. So, do you guys have any tips for writing music? Be it lyrics, or the music itself? What are some things I can do to make it better, or some things I should avoid, for example? Any help would be appreciated!
  14. Shortened Version For Livestream: Simply put: I have a low emotional intelligence. When I get into something online, such as this, I often (to me, at least) seem to come off as writing an academic journal. I'm terrible with anything social, and i often don't know how to make 'small talk' or say things gently. I speak my mind as my thoughts come, even if they aren't fully finished yet. And even when I DO stop to think before I speak, I still tend to get it wrong. I can sound harsh, angry, condescending, or whatever else- when to me, i'm simply making a harmless observation or statement. To top it all off, I have a hard time understanding people's motivations and behaviors when dealing with me, as well as more subtle or complex social cues. And asking people directly rarely ever works, as they don't want to just say what they're thinking. I also often can't express my intentions or meanings without going through a roundabout- and often hurtful or offensive- series of comments. So, what can i do to fix this...??? I've severed many ties with people and friends, and hurt even more, all because of my poor social skills, and I can't seem to get it right. P.S.: Sorry, paraphrazing isn't my strong suit, lol. This is what I mean by 'roundabout' explanations.
  15. Princess, I understand completely. I used to be timid and shy, and kept to myself, and I often felt like I didn't matter to anybody- like nobody ever noticed me. From what little i've talked to you, you do seem to be a somewhat quiet person, and that's not a bad thing by any means! I may be wrong, but you seem to talk most when you feel your input is needed, right? There's nothing wrong with being quiet, or kindof staying out of a large group of people. But, one thing I have learned is that if you want to matter to people, you do need to interact sometimes. Not all the time, and not always with everybody, but little interactions can often make a difference. Don't be afraid to ask questions, add input, or raise your voice, if you want to be heard! (Just make sure you don't sound angry XD) I used to stay quiet all the time, too. But you need to learn to speak up, even if only for a moment at a time. If a tree falls in a forest and people are around to hear it, they're going to hear it. But if the tree rustles gently in the wind? It gets drowned out by all the other trees doing the same thing. I definitely understand the feeling of not wanting to intrude on a conversation, and it can be easy to get ignored sometimes, or feel out of place. I've just gotten into the habit of asking "what's going on?" Whenever a conversation i'm interested in (but not actively involved in) gets to a brief pause- it's a good way to bring the focus onto you, and making sure you have info and input on the situation. (Again, just make sure you're loud enough to be heard! Dont be shy!) As for the fear and suffering part...? Well, some people are naturally good at hiding their feelings without even knowing it- and if you're a quiet person, which you seem to be, it can be hard for others to tell if something is bothering you, as being quiet normally and being quiet from pain aren't much different from one another. Again, don't be afraid to speak up, and be clear about what you want! Just try working on commanding more attention to yourself. Be louder, expressive, give your opinion, throw yourself into the middle of something, crack a joke, even if it's a failure- just make sure people *hear* you, and know that you want to be included. If you keep to yourself, people will assume that's what you want- to keep to yourself. If you put yourself out there for people, people will assume you're interested in whatever it is. This isnt something that will change by waiting and changing yourself. You have to take action sometimes- you HAVE to let people know what it is that you want! I've known many people that expressed concern about not being noticed, or being ignored, and they were always very quiet, never saying much, and never telling people they wanted to be noticed. They assumed that people would just... *know* what they wanted, and would get upset when nobody paid attention. If you don't speak, nobody can listen. If you don't speak, nobody will ever know what you want. So be brave, and speak up for yourself! I hope you can understand my points, here... It may be a bit of mess, and may seem kinda cold, but I'm saying this all in good faith, truly.
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