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  1. Just being friends with my best friend is starting to hurt more and more with each each day. I tried shutting off my feelings for her, but I can't. Please help.
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    MasterLay - Stage Fright

    SlightlyAboveAverageJoe : Lay your all good, it's like riding a bike. the apprehensiveness is difficult, but once you get out there it goes away. But its normal to have some before you come back to something you haven't done in a while.
  3. So, I have my first-in-a-long-time performance coming up, I'm playing saxophone duet with piano during a Christmas fair. As for the question; Is it normal for me to be afraid of stage fright? I've fought with stage fright when I was a music school student, but I've heard it might come back if someone drops performing for a long time, and it's been, like, 2 years.
  4. A friend of mine (she's under 18) smoked cigarettes and I told her that it was wrong even if she did it a few times how can I tell her to stop? She just started smoking she told me she only did it like 3 times, I think she's not addicted yet. (I hope)
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    Count to 1000!

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  6. I'm so sorry. I burden everyone. I'm an annoyance. I screw up things, and yet all I can do is say sorry. It feels like I'm drowning myself. I know I'm doing it, but I just watch myself drown. I sit back while my heart goes numb and my mind goes blank. I can feel myself fading but I do nothing to stop it. I do nothing about it. I'm killing myself and I don't care at all. Do you know what it feels like to have your soul shrivel up and turn to dust? To have your heart break and crack at the slightest touch. Your mind fills up with these dark thoughts and you let it consume you. You let it destroy every fiber of your being, because that's what you deserve. I don't know how to make this stop...
  7. I have no clue what could I give to my girlfriend (who just recently moved away from our city, so directly giving stuff to her is out of option) for our first month together. Any ideas? :3
  8. So... I have a bit of an issue. I really wanted to hit someone on the bus ride home... These kids were calling me a freak and I almost lost my temper. I know they're kids, but I was becoming to lose it. I know, but it made me really upset...
  9. heyo, im scared that my life is ruined, I am barely doing anything in school, I am usually hanging out in the office doing nothing, I go to three out of seven periods, I need help.
  10. Its incredible how people always attack you and get upset at you when you're struggling most... You cry out for help, and you get hate. the world is cruel and cold, sometimes...
  11. What can i do when the only sport i like has 1 team in my area and i have to be 18 to join and my school refuses to make a club for it its not fair?
  12. I feel like last night I dreamt that I no longer cared or had any desire to help people, but I don’t know why is dream about that.
  13. There are times when it just seems like I've turned invisible. I can't tell if it's because of something I do (or don't do), or if it's just not what people generally see. There are days when I am with a person or a group of people they know and while I am around I just don't truly exist in their eyes unless I really try hard to join in. And other times of great fear and suffering, no-one seems to see it... And the sillier times where I was locked in a room because they didn't realize I was still there reading a book. And it's painful to wait and not be seen, but it's also hard to know if it's really okay to speak up because sometimes it still seems that I'm not heard either. It's not a super frequent experience or anything. I am not always the best at social spaces when I don't have any connection because usually other people have those connections and I don't want to intrude. Yet this isn't the only level of invisibility either... As thoughts swirl distorted from memories, all but a shadow exists. Nothing more then a decoration, a piece of art nailed on the wall, or a colorful rug which dutifully sits to tie a room together. Even those who appreciate it, go little further then acknowledgement... Have you experienced that? Any advice?
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    Bre - Normal feelings

    ScienceRocks: Bre~ Every storm runs out of rain! Like Ryan and Joe have said- fighting and standing against these dark times will make you strong!
  15. Uhh... Well it's really just the usual thing. My anxiety is off the charts, depression feels like my only friend, and I feel hallow. It hurts and every day seems like it's darker than the last... My heart feels like it's decaying. My heart is ashes that is being blown away in the wind. And you know what? It's been a tornado of emotions lately. Every time I reach the eye of the storm, I'm pulled back into the chaos. My mind is a mess and I can't make sense of it all. It's somehow jumbled together in the most intricate way. I can't decipher it. It doesn't make sense. I don't make sense, and I just hate it... People always ask, "What's wrong with you?" I don't know what's wrong! They say they want to help but they always leave... The people that leave are like thorny roses and I'm drawn to their beautiful colors. Like a moth drawn to a flame, I'm just waiting for inevitable end... I've stopped trusting people because I can't even trust myself... A few days ago I got so upset that I just couldn't take it. The voices were screaming and my mind was chaotic...so I cut... I cut my thighs and my wrist but it only helped momentarily...
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