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  1. 4 points
    Now I'm not one to complain on the current bss.studio website, because it's great. But I'd be lying if I said the design of it all doesn't feel a little bland to me sometimes. Maybe it's the artist/designer inside of me, but I feel like it could look a bit better and more calming. If you're all interested in this, I'll be more than happy to continue with this project and get in touch with Jesse or someone to actually make these changes a reality. That being said, I'm 100% okay with not applying the changes. And in that case, just enjoy a fan-revamp of BSS! I also included the new BSS-logo because that's the part I'm most proud of. Matt/Cwilk
  2. 3 points
    Hey guys I hope you all are well. I am feeling happy and this is because I recently found out that I had three great great uncles and aunts that became priests and nuns. They all lived in Dun Bummel Netherlands, in this way I feel like I feel a bit closer to God and my family history. Also our out door cat Mama Kitty had five kittens and we can't wait for when they are older so that we can name them.I will be taking online courses this summer so that next fall I can graduate and be done with school for now! The last question I had was how I was feeling depressed and undeserving of love and well recently I have been telling myself I am loved and that I love myself. It lifts my spirits up when I think about that and what you guys have told me. Anyways that is a bit of an update on me. Now this question isn't that serious like my last questions. So in two weeks I will be done with school for the semester and my final for water color is an artist choice and I am struggling to figure out what I should do for it. I could do a still life, abstract, landscape, or illustration and I do love to paint flowers but I am not so sure of what I should do. I have posted some of my work in here below so you can see. I need to figure out what to do! I want to know now so that I am not rushing what to do and so my art doesn't become crappy and that is not something I want to do. What do you think I should do? -Kendra M Wokal-
  3. 2 points
    @Jesse V. I love this question, and I'm glad you've added your own. For we all have things that worry us. Please continue to be awesome because you really are, and there are many people who think the world of you, regardless of who is smarter than you. I think there are far many people who are smarter than me who could help you in your situation, but it is not the person who knows the most, or understands the best who is the one who makes the difference. It is he who takes that knowledge and makes a leap of faith if you will. I don't know the details of your question, or even what concerns that you might have about this, so I have to speculate. That speculation suggests that you might be worried about your employment when surrounded by these people who know more. Hopefully that is the majority of your concern, because in the end I think we all actually do want to be surrounded by many smart and wise people who help us to grow and to learn. Next step, examples from my experience. First from golf, then from business. In the golf world while I worked there I was surrounded by so many people who were more concerned with the aspects of golf and understanding the game and making sales than I was. There were people who knew how to work a room, and get people to enjoy themselves far better than I did. And so there were many times that I was really worried about the prospect of being beaten out for the position or for not understanding enough. What I found was that I was far more skilled in other areas and those same people I looked up to for their ability to work with people, looked to me for answers when it came to numbers. Second example, numbers where I am far better than most people. I surround myself with friends who are far better with numbers than me. I have a friend who does coding and works for MIT. I have a friend who's an engineer who's done work with General Motors. I have a friend who was the president of our university's student body, had three majors, and is an auditor for a really big accounting firm. All of them know numbers better than me, by a long shot. For the longest time I felt lesser than or not good enough when I was around these people. I felt like didn't stack up. But after years of doing such a thing, around the same time that God came in and change my life in other ways, I noticed a shift here as well. Instead of focusing on how well I matched up to them, I got excited about the fact that I had friends who knew so much, and that I could learn from. In fact, I've learned so much from you personally, you wouldn't believe it. From running a stream, to operating a webpage, to interacting with people via the interwebs, to just life in general and dealing with long term struggles. You don't need to be this wizard of wisdom to make a difference in our lives, or yours for that matter. You just need to be the Jesse that all of us already know and love. This isn't an overnight change, or something that goes away just because. I still find myself doing the comparison thing to others. I recommend rereading @Joe 【CDVNL】's post on the comparison trap again. It's good, and I find myself rereading it when I start looking at others as better than or lesser than me . And my personal favorite story/helpful remembrance is the story of Jesus. The truth that you don't have to be perfect, excellent, or even good, because someone else did that for you. And that makes life's journey way easier. Love you friend, Joseph Bohan One of the Real Ones
  4. 2 points
    there we go, but ye I stated in the post (sry took it down cause was asked to), but I stated that that's just OVERLY religious people. Ik they tryna do what they see in their eyes as good, but its so cancer when they try to write you letters and leave them in your work place, "Believe in god or you'll go to hell" type stuff. I'm fine with anyone being anything, just don't flaunt it like an autist on bath salts
  5. 2 points
    10 out of 10 best singer/princess ~~sry static~~
  6. 2 points
    Thank you too! That was very insightful and you seem to have gotten quite a lot out of my humble suggestions. And wow, we have similar passions in game design! Though coding isn't my strongest suit, I would also love to make a fully-fledged game one day! It's very cool you're able to tweak Piskel like that, it definitely has some shortcomings. And yeah, GingerPale's great - Matt/Cwilk
  7. 2 points
    Hey, it's my boy GingerPale! I've seen that video before, but it only makes sense to me from an artist's perspective now. It's not really enough just to give your art shading, but to give a tone and style through the different colors and color palettes. I know now that I must recognize a style when making pixel art, and I think by starting to practice more and more, I might even be as good as you one day. Like you said, it's all about sampling the colors that you would like to use and finding a balance between each one in order to not only create a stylized product, but one where every piece of the picture, every layer of shading, every color chosen makes for a unique and satisfying pixel creation. The video that you embedded really allowed me to understand the process of color picking a bit better in a more simplistic and humorous way (I mean how can you not find it enjoyable; it's GingerPale!). I appreciated that you pointed out that you used Piskel--an art creation tool specifically for this kind of stuff (I didn't even know that kind of program existed, or at least to that level of quality and detail). I'm so glad you pointed it out to me, and I'll be sure to use it as I advance further in my future ventures into spriting and pixel art as a whole. Plus--the program's apparently open-source, so I can use my prior coding skills to tweak Piskel to my liking . Though, I've seen dithering done in some art and video games before, I've never actually incorporated it into my own artwork; and that I know what it's called, I can continue to practice it. And by doing so, I'll then be able to shade in many new, different ways. Your example to this "style" of shading really helped out a bunch too, now that I can see clearly what you mean. All in all, the explanation that you gave of creating pixel art, while pretty basic, is an extremely helpful starting point for me, and it opened my mind up as to how complex art made by using bits on a screen can be. I'll be sure to practice frequently in order to get better at the craft, since art is actually one of my deep passions that I've lost through my years of growing up and reaching adolescence. But now that I've found this hobby, which combines the aspects of both coding (through video game creation), video games, and art (my three favorite things) through developing sprites or just general pixel art, I've certainly found a new home in the digital art community. Thank you soooo much for the tutorial, Matt, I really appreciate it, as you've both taught me something valuable and made my day just a little bit better . - Angel/Vanadium
  8. 2 points
    It's very nice you asked me for tips! I don't think I've had that happen to me before Well, I'll get into some more technical stuff, but the most important things are that you practice, don't be afraid to experiment and try not to give up. That goes for all art in general. As for pixel art, there are some things I've learned as I've developed. I personally use Piskel for my art btw. Here are some of those things anyway: it's important not to draw on too small of a canvas, but if you don't feel like upping the canvas size to sth like 50x50 or 64x64, you don't have to. But typically art looks better with more detail. I like making my borders pretty fat too, about 2 pixels or so. As for coloring, some more in-between colors help for shading. You can see that the face has 4 different shades itself. I also sometimes use dithering, which you can look up if you don't know what that means. I'll add an example below. Another cool trick I lately discovered was adding those little pixels around the borders, and I love how it looks. In terms of sketching and drawing the first draft without colors, I struggle with that a lot myself, but I just kind of do it until it looks alright. For palettes the same rule applies: just pick colors until they look good. But colors are another topic as a whole. Maybe this video will help Really, you'll probably find more help from somewhere else. But whatever you do, remember to enjoy drawing and don't get discouraged from other people seeming better than you. You might feel like you're falling behind of them, but really, their success wasn't easy or quick either. Everyone's got their own pace and yours is probably faster than you think. Try to discover your own little tricks and challenge yourself with something out of your comfort zone from time to time. Good luck! -Matt/Cwilk Dithering example:
  9. 2 points
    Bad News wip/sneakpeek Someone is making a debut
  10. 2 points
    not CI related but a little thing I drew for Valentines
  11. 1 point
    I think it'd be nice if the site looked like this. =3 I really like that logo, too, btw. I think everyone does!
  12. 1 point
    In case you would like to see them cover this topic Karma, they aired it on today on 5/24/19 as the first topic, you can review it on youtube after the show finishes tonight!
  13. 1 point
    Hi, scrapped the other one, so here's a new one. Hey, my name is Michael, but I call myself Aaron. My girlfriend Juliet broke up with me last Monday, and literally the day after she started dating one of my best friends. Turns out she started liking him about a week before we broke up. This has made me more than a little depressed and this situation has caused many other people to leave. I still have feelings for her for some reason. Idk what to do, any advice?
  14. 1 point
    Wow! This is really nice! I quite like it!
  15. 1 point
    It was all done in an image manipulation program. I altered a screenshot of the interface. As for specifically what I did, I created the image below for the background, and implemented the rest straight on the demonstration above. I could create suitable PNGs for the logo with the gradient and the bars on the top. The rest is color manipulating, which may be problematic for some elements, though I haven't seen the actual code. Heck, you guys have the upper hand on coding knowledge so really I don't even know how hard it is to implement anything. As for the colors, I made most elements bluer (I can help out with what color for each element exactly), and I made all fonts darker except the text on the top transparent bars, which I made white. That's pretty much all. Feel free to ask about something or DM me.
  16. 1 point
    Yeah I thought it would be a nice idea for some people (like me xD) who need/have some ideas for lyrics for songs. I hope we can help each other.
  17. 1 point
    Still updating it, but: https://kitsu.io/users/519080
  18. 1 point
    I just like writing stories on here... So, I'll be honest, I joke about suicidal people sometimes because they're mad stupid. BUT, I'm mad stupid too. ALSO, 99% of the time, they're not gonna suicide. If they wouldn't originally, they're not going to if you made a joke. Either way, I been suicidal for years, but I'm not satisfied yet. My suicidal intentions are solely based on that I don't want to live. I have no reason other than I just don't want to be alive. People generally suicide because something's happened to their loved ones or themselves and they feel like they don't want to feel anymore. I'm a bit of the opposite on the case. I don't exactly have a sense of sorrow or happiness.. Instead of feeling bad for someone, or feeling bad when friends die, etc... It's just a sense of void, not depression, just no thoughts wrap around as, "Oh my god, I miss them." it's more like, "Well *** happens." I got my first car and got fixed up on life, but yet my aunt, nor' uncle has never seen a smile on my face for being happy. Yeah I'll laugh at a joke, but happiness and jokes are two separate entities. It's been this way ever since I've been alive, or well at least ever since I could think for myself. But I don't really think unless I have a lot of time to think and nothing else to do. I never got to "Why I'm a bit of the opposite case." my b, well so... Dead Mother @ 12 Dead Friends @ 14-17 mainly cause they're dumb a**es (See I got u Joe, I censored it, heh) and decided to get in trouble with the wrong people and get shot. Poor/Homeless Ghetto/Section 8 Every chick I ever dated cheated (except the one I'm with now) Abusive Father, this fu**er was trying to persuade a police officer to take me to jail to get rid of me lol. Literally had to eat plain bread with butter/sugar for years on edge and once every half a year we'd have a few ramen things. But we ran out of butter n sugar often so it was bread or bread with water. 1 of 11 kids I never had any problems with any of that, it's non-existent to me, it's still a memory, but I never felt for any of it, I just look upon it like, "Well, gg bois." I don't need help, dw bout it bois, as I said, it's just I want to die, I'm just waiting for if my gf ever leaves me, then yeah. Don't wanna leave her sad. I'd rather disappear without her knowing so it's easier. People say, "Wait until I'm WOKE." I'm more awake when I'm asleep. I don't wanna reset my life. I got a bunch of bad cards, but I was able to change it all around, it doesn't bother me. I just want everything to end for me. It sounds nice.
  19. 1 point
    What can you do when your surrounded by so many smart people that know so much more than you?
  20. 1 point
    that was a lot of guests is it still the same?
  21. 1 point
    Oh whoops.. That makes sense. In this case thank you for the heads up. It gave me a great site to look around
  22. 1 point
    Lol, Sands, I featured it, the same day you found it it was never there before. So you're good.
  23. 1 point
    That's the point. Because it's 'pinned' it is basically the first thing I can see on the main page but somehow I managed to miss it each time I scrolled down Oh well, at least I'm happy that I could transfer my data from MAL to there. Worked pretty well, only minor things had to be changed which is delightful although I'm not sure what's the reaction for. It's basically like a quick review with my own opinion I suppose
  24. 1 point
    Hey. A bit late. I suppose? Here's mine. If any of you are still interested. At least I made one real quick. Import is a thing *happy noises* https://kitsu.io/users/sandslight Funny how I didn't realize this post earlier.
  25. 1 point
    Well yeah, agnostic speaking here, so I get what you're saying. The solution "believe in God" can seem or be useless for us non-religious. However, not nearly as many Christians act the way you described, and if you feel like this community's Christians do, you might've amplified or misidentified their actual intentions. Personally, I'm all for believing in God if you use it as comfort on the days you feel weak or worthless. And to protect religion, I really support the "what if?" argument. What if there's something or someone above all our world and understanding? Well there's no real way for you to know or disprove that. Almost by definition, that something is above our knowledge, right? That sounds impossible, but it might just be that your blind belief in science and common logic is naive. In conclusion, I'm more than happy to let people dream, but if people harm or start wars because of religion, I think they're going too far.
  26. 1 point
    Have you ever been hurt before? Whether physically, mentally, or emotionally, there are hurts that we all face in this life. Pain is caused by others. Pain is inflicted by ourselves. And if that was the end of the story life would be very bleak indeed. But we know that it isn't. We know that there are so many great things that come out of the gift of life. We know that there are a million possibilities waiting to be explored. We know that the world is waiting on us. So what do we do? We stop focusing on the pain. We stop focusing on the fact that we've been hurt and we start to focus on the things that are better. Would you rather spend all day worrying about someone hurting you again, or would you rather go spend the day with that person having fun? Would you rather stay at home all day and not go outside because of something you've seen, or would you rather enjoy the sunshine with your friends and family? Focusing on the hurt takes our eyes off of what is good and focuses it on the bad. "Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is honorable, whatever is just, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is commendable, if there is any excellence, if there is anything worthy of praise, thing about these things." Take your eyes off the hurt, so that you can see life again. Love, Joseph Bohan One of the Real Ones
  27. 1 point
    Hey Science! First things first! Congrats! You are learning . Very proud of you. You are seeing improvement in yourself. Second thing is this, you don't have to be anything yet. You are enough. Now, then, and in the future. Who you are is always enough. However, the you were yesterday isn't the same you you are today. We are always changing. Growing and learning. People around us are constantly changing with us. We act off them and they off us. We all hit road blocks. Sometimes it is harder for us to reach inside of ourselves and take care of another person. Sometimes, we just aren't strong enough to handle those things ourselves. We may want to be all that everyone needs, but that just isn't how life works. We will all have our weak days. We will all have our days where we feel like we can take on the world and do everything...only to sleep through your alarms, trip on your way to the car, and just flail about during the day. It just happens. You cannot be expected to be on top of your game all the time. You can't be expected to KNOW everything either. You can't be expected to just be "there yet", as you put it. There is no time limit for improvement. I learn something new everyday. I am constantly becoming more of who I'm meant to be with every passing hour. I find newer ways to approach and deal with, not only other people, but myself as well. You see all of the things that you perceive as wrong with you. You get angry, you can't understand others as well every time, you say you are emotionally reckless. I read those and all that tells me is that you are human. You are learning, changing, growing. You are improving. With every step you take you are becoming more and growing stronger. You will make mistakes, you won't understand some things. That's fine. Learn from those. Everything in life that happens can be viewed as a lesson. Good or bad. Don't measure your value or worth based on what you can't do right now. Take that information and teach yourself ways to not do it and try for a different approach. Never stop trying. Never stop growing. You are already doing such a fantastic job. With every post I read from you, with every comment you make on the stream, I see growth. I see you becoming more. You are enough Science. Never forget that. With a loving heart, Keaton
  28. 1 point
    So, i've been rather busy (and lazy, lol) and haven't had too much time to sit down and practice writing lyrics or music, so I looked up some tips and advice on how to write better lyrics, and what I can do. One source I found said that getting into writing poetry would be a good idea, as that's basically what songs are without the music. it lets you focus on improving your lyrics writing, without worrying about fitting it well to music or melody. It also said writing about things you didn't care too much about would be a good idea to start with, as that way you don't have the pressure of writing something really good because you care about the topic- it allows you to just write more crap so you know what to actually do when you have a serious topic. What do you guys think of that advice? is it good? bad? do you have anything to add? PS: apparently, i'm already writing lyrics and i wasn't even trying, lol. ^^^
  29. 1 point
    Hey Jorge and Ralph! jkjk I kid~ (I know your names are John and Romney) Anyway, hope you guys are doing phenomenal today! Happy May! So as you may know, the end of the school year is coming near, which means (the dreaded): finals and exams. (boooooo) So for us students, do you have any words of encouragement before we set out to those testing rooms? De-stressing techniques? Cheating tactics? (Viewers Discretion is advised) To fellow students: YOU WILL KICK BUTTTTTTTT!!! NO BUTTS NO CUTS NO COCONUTS. SEE Y'ALL ON THE FLIP SIDE!
  30. 1 point
    !!!nya uwu!!!
  31. 1 point
    I wish I could say my first song here would be a Static-P song. but with the amazingness of others covers. I can't find something I will be satisfied with. It's a bit because they mean so much to me that I want to do them the justice I don't think I can. But maybe I can get there if I post something. As the common idiom goes, "songs are never perfect. there's always at least one wrong note in there." So, here's a most certainly not perfect song. It's just mostly me playing around with singing it. Yet this is the baby step I hope that will get me to actually release songs I try to sing. So without further written procrastination, here's my cover of Photograph. Photograph_Ed_Sheeran_Cover_By_Princess.m4a
  32. 1 point
    Here's a cutesy Hareka from Star Blush Girls! I'll probably eventually make one for all members of SBG. Since Hareka is my favorite, I started with her Matt/Cwilk
  33. 1 point
    Oooh, very nice! I love the amount of detail and shading put into the face How did you learn to get so good at pixel art? I'm currently learning how to make better pixel art/sprites, and I'm a bit lost on how to get a good color palette or even start making stuff as detailed as that ;3;
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    Lol saaaaaame. I have to switch up the intervals of when they go off all the time just to keep me on my toes and lord help me if a cat is sleeping on my phone (which has happened numerous times).
  35. 1 point
    I'm no stranger to listening to music. I currently have 387 songs saved on my phone with a runtime of about 24 hours. So I thought I'd share some of my favorites, organized and all! Tell me yours in the replies as well ^-^. I didn't include most of Static's songs because you're probably familiar with those Top 10 12 Sleepaways/Saving Sound - Four Years Gone* Alpharad - Center of a Universe* Owl City - Paper Tigers* Vau Boy - There ft. Skye Rocket Your Name - Zenzenzense* (I listen to the english version) Crush 40 - Live Life (from Sonic and the Black Knight) Rob Thomas - Hold on Forever Trading Yesterday - Shattered Doki Doki Literature Club! - Your Reality MIKA - Good Guys Roomie - Numb Static-P - It's Not Like I Like You!! *more sentimental and personal reasons, not inherently great songs on the technical standpoint Pop (happy) Ed Sheeran - Castle on the Hill Hyper Potions & Skye Rocket - MANIA Madeon - Pay No Mind Michael Buble - Haven't Met You Yet MIKA - Good Gone Girl MIKA - Grace Kelly Owl City - Alligator Sky Owl City - Hot Air Balloon Owl City - Plant Life Owl City - The Real World Paradise Fears - Color Will Jay - Leading Man Pop (sad) Alec Benjamin - Water Fountain AnimatedJames - Creative Types Ed Sheeran - Happier Five For Fighting - 100 Years Ivan B - Angels George Ezra - Budapest MIKA - I See You Owl City - Captains and Cruise Ships Owl City - Enchanted (cover) Owl City - Tidal Wave Paradise Fears - Battle Scars Paradise Fears - Same Love (cover) Paradise Fears - Sanctuary Paradise Fears - Who We Were With Rob Thomas - Little Wonders The All-American Rejects - It Ends Tonight Sky Sailing - Sailboats Sleepaways/Saving Sound - Summer Sadness We The Kings - Sad Song Rock Panic! at the Disco - New Perspective Waterparks - Hawaii (Stay Awake) Electro Vau Boy - Reminds Me of You Vau Boy - Seven Months and Seven Days Porter Robinson - Sad Machine Porter Robinson - Divinity Musicals Be More Chill - Michael in the Bathroom Dear Evan Hansen - Waving Through a Window Hamilton - Wait For It Hamilton - The Room Where It Happens Rap Rusty Cage - The Lives of Flies Animes Your Name - Sparkle (English) Your Name - Dream Lantern (English) Your Lie in April - Friend A Your Lie in April - Again Instrumentals/Video game OSTs Fez - Adventure (Laura Platt's orchestral remix) Kirby's Epic Yarn - Outer Rings Little Inferno - Reporting From the Weather Balloon Adam Young - The Pilot (from Project Excelsior) Violet Evergarden - Across the Violet Sky Violet Evergarden - Theme of Violet Evergarden
  36. 1 point
    That's a lot of music! I have a lot of listening to do.
  37. 1 point
    Ez, what I did was leave them and create my own expectations. Family doesn't matter as much as everyone says they do. That's a bad quote to take from me, but it's the real world. Tell them your disorder if you have to, if not - don't worry about it. People judge one-another because it's a conversation starter, you're just a story for a few people, but at least you're the highlight of a conversation for some people. People nowadays don't exactly bully anymore, because most people's senses of humor are able to make fun of themselves on levels others can't. Don't worry about what they think about you, just wonder how you can make something into a joke, they'll walk away from it sooner or later, but your friends will still make fun of it, because you can make fun of 99% the tragedies in the world, doesn't matter if you don't think it's funny, if it's a joke it's a joke. Don't be ignorant, just acknowledge why someone would laugh about it. It's your option, they don't exactly have that control over you - they'll probably shut you down for skipping the classes or whatever bands do, but in the end it's your choice. Do what you want... I'm not saying go against them, but parents are retarded A LOT of the times ESPECIALLY when they make choices for you. You're your own guy. No one NEEDS to be perfect, that's a retarded question my dood. Also perfection depends on the type of the person and no one's perfect so that's non-existent. Depends what it is, it's most-likely not their problem... I'm guessing you're referring to rape, if so, it is your problem, but they should acknowledge it. There's a lot of crazy women that don't understand what rape is though, so sadly I feel like I have to explain it -- Rape is when a sexual organ penetrates another's sexual organs without one's consent. The internet is full of people, even if it's a short conversation it should be relieving, go on a social website and talk to people who like what you're addicted to at the moment. Also, groups of friends are people who you should stick by as long as they're good to you. Don't try to replace them. Make friends, learn, or focus on your work. You probably won't get perfect scores on all of them, but you study. Depends on the person, but stress doesn't exactly stop. It just calms down, but it gradually falls over you if your mentality gives into it. Grow a big ego, in other words become the Sin of Pride. Here's a photo to relate to:
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    I understand completely. I am wanting to meet my boyfriend who lives in Georgia! And I am currently living with my parents who have no clue we are dating but know that we know each other. They worry about me and being online and my dad keeps telling me not to give out where I live and what not. I understand why your parents are worried, but you are old enough to make your own decisions, they might not like them now, but they need to get to know them better. If I were you I would sit down with your parents and tell them how you feel. I haven't done it yet with my parents because there is never a right time. But I think you should talk to them and tell them how you feel! Meet up with your friend and have your parents actually meet them and get to know them so that they can see what you see in your friend. I don't know if this helps, but I hope it does! Don't worry though, everything will work out in the end.
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    The most important thing you can do, at this time, is to stop lying as much as possible. Lying only accomplishes one thing, and that's making things harder and more difficult for yourself and those around you. Staying true to yourself and others is most important. I understand that it can be difficult. It's easier to try and be someone else and have that person be disliked than to be who you really are and have someone dislike the real you. The thing is, that isn't what is important. You are who you are. People will either love you or just move on away from you. No one's opinion matters over your own in regards to yourself. Ever. We don't live for others approval. We only have ourselves at the end of the day. I would suggest reflecting on who YOU feel YOU truly are. Search within yourself to find who you want to be and make the strides to make that person happen. You have already made much progress. I'm sure you can see what wonders you can truly create by just being you and doing what it is that you love. When you feel yourself trying to lie to others or yourself, step back. Take a physical step back if that helps even. Think for a moment before going in that direction again. Once you fall into lies it is so very difficult to pull yourself back out. Wanting and craving attention and support isn't really a bad thing either. It's human nature to want to be loved on and tended to. We want to be surrounded by caring people and crave to be warm with those around us. During the good times as well as the bad. We want positive attention. So don't feel too upset about wanting such. However...with that, you've began to cling to the negative and bad bringing about more support and comfort. It isn't as noticeable when things are going well, but that doesn't mean it isn't still there. Pay attention to the little things as much as you can. I'm sure you will begin to see more and more goodness blossom around you. People don't just reach out and support you when you aren't feeling 100%. We don't just decide to ignore you once you are happy again. We are always still here. Good, bad, happy, sad. Doesn't matter. Friends are a constant source of warmth in your life. Smile brighter knowing that, if you can. You aren't defined by your lies. You are more than what you convince yourself to be. The you that you are is far better than any lie you (or anyone) can ever create. It is easy to hide behind false words. It's easy to just say whatever and move on with your life. It's just easy to make something up and deal with whatever may come later. It's work to create bonds. It's work to create connections (true connections) with people. When you are upset (or lying about being such), you will see people reaching out more to you. To offer you comfort or whatever you feel you may need. It's the easy way out basically. I am sorry for just saying such, but it really is like that. Friendships/relationships all take work. We have to be true to ourselves to make the full leap. Otherwise you are just protecting yourself in the end. You can't build up more with anyone if you are constantly changing your story or lying to yourself about what is going on in your head. Try to see that lying is never going to make you or anyone else happier. You are who you are meant to be. That is all we can ever be in life. If people don't care for you or dislike what you are doing, who cares? They are not what define you. YOU are the only person that can say who you are and who you will be. YOU are the only person that can direct your life. YOU are the only person that matters most in YOUR life. You already see what you are doing. That's the first big step. You already know what direction you need to take to better yourself. All that is left is taking that leap. Take that leap into who you are meant to be. Take that leap with your head held high KNOWING that you are being true to yourself first. You don't need others to tell you how great you are (though we will continue to do so). If you feel like you may need to lie more, please, I encourage you to catch your breath first and rethink. I urge you to stop lying to yourself because you can't be truly happy until you do. You can't decide what it is you are truly passionate about until the lies are no longer clouding your mind. You can't grow past what has happened when you are so focused with covering up every little lie that happens. No one can. Continue to reach out if you feel yourself slipping. You aren't alone through any of this. If you need a little positive everyday just to help, I will send you a little something every morning. Anything to help you keep away from the lies. You are already a great person. Let us work together to make you see yourself as such.
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    Yes the bracket guy's name is Cwi, it's very original I know. This is something very experimental I came up with just 'cause you can change colors here. Took me longer than I'd like to admit :p. ████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████ ████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████ ████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████ ████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████ ████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████ ████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████ ████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████ ████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████ ████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████ ████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████ ████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████ ████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████ ████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████ ████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████ ████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████ ████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████ ████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████ ████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████ ████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████ ████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████ For reference, since I just changed my pfp:
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    Salutations all you lovely folks, I'll be giving you guys a decent theory once I collect evidence this evening. - Yours Truly Dr. Evander
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    Here we go. I actually wrote this out on paper, in reference to the title of the poem, "halphandwriting" (hαndwriting). I'll give you two versions, plain text and a picture of the hand-written one. "halphandwriting" About a year ago from now I found my now-nostalgia on a shelf: some things to redefine myself, a memory box to fall in love, and poems so special I'd leave them all in a wholly different catalogue. A later evening, I made a die. Something to reminisce me by, something to connect to me, and something so succinctly analogue, it had to become history. A moment I'd like to share: the mountain-climbing, drowning air I felt between the stars back then; we centered a universe, I and they. And yet some questions left unanswered. In my dreams, a familiar standard: light blue hoodies and autographs. I guess, on behalf of perfect timing it seeped into my handwriting. A paper topping the question stack: "do I want to take it all back?" Commentary: This poem is verrrryy personal, and it talks about a strong influence in the past two years of my life that have basically redefined it. Here's the main story behind this, and I'll go more into detail by taking the paragraphs one by one. This is gonna start on a random point, but bear with me. About 7 or 8 years ago, I got to play Super Smash Bros. Brawl on the Wii. At that time, it was one of my favorite games of all time, so when SSB4 came out, I started playing that and more importantly, watching content on Youtube for it. In I think 2015 or 2016, I discovered a YT channel by the name Alpharad, which made such content. I watched it on-and-off, not really thinking much of it. It was fun, but nothing earth-shattering. Then, in 2017, when Alpharad had moved on to more diverse content apart from Smash, I had a casual summer trip with my orchestra. While I was there, I watched a lot of Alpharad videos, made nostalgic and fond memories, and I guess that's when Alpharad/Jacob became more than a Youtuber to me. Call it teenage-hood fanboying, but this was the best kind of it there was. I also watched his secondary channel Friends Without Benefits (FWOB) and became a fan of that, too. At one February night, on 2018, I made a fan account for FWOB, entitled FWOBAverageGuy. I basically averaged the channel's Mario Party rolls to see, which member of FWOB was the highest roller on average. While running this account, I joined a community of other FWOB fans, and actually kinda started a movement of FWOB fan accounts. In came FWOBNoContext, the most popular one today, FwobInspiring, and like, 10-15 others (I know it shows that FWOBNoContext and others started their accounts before me on Twitter, but that's because my original account got shut down.). I made great memories with that community, and the experiences I went through hold a lot of sentimental value to me today. I also want to share the most defining moment of this all. Moving back to Alpha, I discovered his music and his band Sleepaways (or maybe it's Saving Sound and the album is called Sleepaways? Idk.), and most of all, a Sleepaways song "Four Years Gone". Surprisingly, I wasn't a big fan of it at first, but kept on coming back to it, because it held some nostalgic indescribable value. This song has become the most defining, important song of my life and this 2018 experience thus far. You don't have to understand just why it holds so much meaning to me, because I even don't. It just seemed to appear at such a perfect time of my life to make it so special. But alright, I've rambled enough, let's move on to the poem, and I'll share some more details. The first paragraph is pretty understandable. I made memories and went through experiences that redefined me. The last two lines reference the original poems I wrote ("Past", "The Storyteller", and "Ribbons"), as I wrote them in 2018 too, so some of the effect this all had on me reflected in those poems as well (In "Past", a reference to a line in "Four Years Gone", and while I wrote "Ribbons", I definitely had some of those indescribable passions/feelings in mind I felt during this time). The second paragraph is about FWOBAverageGuy and it's creation, as I averaged dice rolls and I've come to mainly connect FWOBAverageGuy to dice in general. And it did become history to me. The third paragraph is a reference to an Alpharad song "Center of a Universe", which I found at an emotional evening, too. This is also a very influential and special song to me. The lines try to convey the atmosphere this song gave off to me, and the "they" in the last line is the community I mentioned earlier. The fourth paragraph first lines convey the fanboyish feelings I felt for Alpha. Believe it or not, during this time, I actually did see some dreams about getting autographs from people I respected. And here comes the title, too. The experience of this all seems so defining that I came up with a metaphor of it seeping through every time I write. If you didn't realize already, the "alpha" in "halphandwriting" comes from Alpharad. The last two lines question whether I want to participate more in the FWOB and Alpharad community again, or if I want to leave this experience as something special, and put it to rest before I find a way to ruin it somehow. The last line itself is a reference to another line in "Four Years Gone": "And if you feel so lonely; we could take it all back". Finally, an exclusive explanation to the hand-written version: the line coming from the last line I just felt like making. I thought of putting all of the effects this experience has had on me, every special memory, all my love on this line, and then I just drew it. It's art I made on the way, and it's the most indescribably beautiful thing on the poem for me. I hope you enjoyed that. Not gonna lie, it was a bit uncomfortable to write this all out and I kept out some facts, as they feel so personal they might be looked as weird by others. But don't worry, I wouldn't be sharing this much if I didn't want to. Just understand that this was all happening in my head back then, where there is no potential judgment of others, and it's easier to understand things that can seem weird but hold so much sentimental and meaningful value. Thank you for reading Matt
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    Ok, here we go "The Storyteller" I'm surrounded by glass bottles, here on the shelf The more one's hurt, the more they crack oneself. I live a good life - I've barely been scraped On the bottom shelf I've never escaped. As I have lived, I've come to realise, that the fact the others break and leak is what makes them have purpose. I understand that I am still filled and that makes me empty. I have never been scraped, thus I can't give anything away. I'm here on the bottom shelf, writing a poem and I look at the blank paper with fear. I cannot escape. As I lower my head I think and suddenly dip my pen in some ink. As I have lived, I've started to know: as a bottle, I can overflow! I can fill other smaller bottles, bigger ones too. Yes! That's exactly what I'm going to do! I can take other bottles to far away lands or put them directly into danger's hands. I quickly grab myself a paper pile I look at the blank paper and smile. Commentary: First, why this poem came to life is because I originally wrote this for a poetry discord server, where I constantly saw others post poems about their sad times and depression and confliction and whatnot. At that time, I really wasn't sad or confused about anything, and so I wasn't sure what to write a poem about. Then I got the idea of writing a poem about just that. Saying how now I can focus on making others feel emotions instead of expressing my own. Now, my thoughts about the quality of this: honestly, it feels quite awkward at times. I hate the line that starts with "and suddenly", 'cause saying that is completely unnecessary and cliché. It obviously wanted three more syllables to the line. Also the first line of the last paragraph is very cliché too. Another thing is that the second paragraph's lack of rhymes is supposed to catch the reader off-guard and make the lines feel less excited as the other ones, but now it just seems like an unsatisfying flop. I still like the metaphor of glass bottles and overflowing, but over-all, one of my least favorite poems (Don't worry, the poems I'm more proud of will come soon, just going in the order that they were written). Matt/Cwilk
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    How do you guys find this so quick? And why is it in featured topic??? >///< Thank you for the nice comments. Photograph is a song I remember listening too when I was in sophomore year, which was actually a really difficult year. I had many relationships falling apart in my life. So it's a bittersweet song about love. I thought about this song recently, both about someone I care about, and a bit about God as well. Loving can hurt, sometimes it's overwhelming, but it can also heal. It's not something I will let myself give up on, cause it's the only way I know how to treat others. And sometimes the only place you can find it is in a photograph. A memory made, and that's hard. That's so hard sometimes. But still so precious, since love never dies. So this was all done on using my iPhone earbuds for a mic and an app called Smule. This allows me to sing parts over each other with slightly different filters for my voice if I want because I have a membership on it. However, I cannot choose what side of the speakers my voice comes out, which makes it really difficult to make it sound balanced. So you can slightly tell that the melody line is out of sync in some places due to it being song twice. It also allows me to only adjust the volume once, so I just gotta hope I get it right the first time I record each track. As for the harmonies, I was just having fun. It was just whatever came to mind to sing. While I have an Audio-technica AT2020USB+ Cardioid Condenser Microphone, I have no idea how to use it. Or maybe more accurately how to make it sound good. I wish I did so that I could have more control over it. I have found that it sounds similar to how my voice would if it was not filtered on the smule app, so I believe that there must be a way I can fix it. Though If anyone has any ideas or tips that would be highly appreciated.
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    Episode 9 of Criminal Idol ~~~~~~Lyrics~~~~~~ [Detective] Hareka came to me in private, looking a little uneasy. She began talking about their rise to fame. It was their first show, a charity gig. While they were there, a man named Nori introduced himself to them. [Nori] *clear throat* Hello hello. So you want to know how to get from the bottom to the top. Well, listen up. Here we go. Welcome to the show. By the way - just thought you should know Everything's rigged. Oh oh~ Everything's rigged. But don't you give up hope. 'Cause I believe that you and me if we work together we can change things. This whole idol industry is just for gambling Isn't this a crime against humanity? Take a look. Open up your eyes and see how beautiful this world was made to be. Now, take a look, cast your gaze upon this world in danger how vulnerable it is to human dreams. Some people dream. They dream evil, darling. Baby, they're bad news bad news. They're bad news. Some people dream and seem satisfied but they're not, it's just bad news. Shoot for the sky. I-I-I-I'm with ya 'cause you're trouble for bad news: bad news for bad news. People like you dream dreams that make the world shine bright. Yeeaah~ I've been working on the inside and I've worked with those who run the show, so take this paper note. I've secured your group a spot to perform. And here's the results for when you go. You'll find the scores of each group to be just as I wrote. Shh~ I know that it's all unbelievable but Shh~ stay calm and be quiet. Since, now, you've confirmed the scores to be just as I wrote I hope you'll help me secretly fight it. 'Cause - Take a look. Open up your eyes and see how beautiful this world was made to be. Now, take a look, cast your gaze upon this world in danger how vulnerable it is to human dreams. Some people dream. They dream evil, darling. Baby, they're bad news bad news. They're bad news. Some people dream and seem satisfied but they're not, it's just bad news. Shoot for the sky. I-I-I-I'm with ya 'cause you're trouble for bad news: bad news for bad news. People like you dream dreams that make the world shine bright. Some people dream. They dream evil, darling. Baby, they're bad news bad news. They're bad news. Some people dream and seem satisfied but they're not, it's just bad news. Shoot for the sky-y-y-y. I'm with ya 'cause you're trouble for bad news: bad news for bad news. People like you dream dreams that make the world shine bright. [Hareka] (as spoken by Detective) Do you mean it was rigged from the start? She said. Do you think this will ruin my heart? No. I don't need some stranger telling me what my score is. I don't need some vain inflation of dopamine from them. Isn't it the same even if it's all rigged in the end? 'Cause their scores will never change who I am and what I've put in. I don't need some stranger telling me what my score is. I don't need some vain inflation of dopamine from them. Isn't it the same even if it's all rigged in the end? 'Cause their scores will never change who I am and what I've put in. Some people dream. They dream evil, darling. Baby, they're bad news bad news. They're bad news. Some people dream and seem satisfied but they're not, it's just bad news. Shoot for the sky. I-I-I-I'm with ya 'cause you're trouble for bad news: bad news for bad news. People like you dream dreams that make the world shine bright. Some people dream. They dream evil, darling. Baby, they're bad news bad news. They're bad news. Some people dream and seem satisfied but they're not, it's just bad news. Shoot for the sky. I-I-I-I'm with ya 'cause you're trouble for bad news: bad news for bad news. People like you dream dreams that make the world shine bright.


  46. 1 point
    I'm a fan if detective detective because I'm a fan of is smooth cool vibe he gives in it
  47. 1 point
    I guess u need to find someone who can open the door and pull you outside and help you start your journey. We all have different dreams and inspirations. I believe that everybody just needs to go and find their inspiration. That's why a good teacher is not the one who teaches you the most but the one who will help you find your inspiration and open the door for you to change the world in your own way
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    Steins: Gate is an anime I always meant to watch since I was younger, but never got to LOL There's a lot of those ;o Thats what I use Kitsu for mainly LOL I don't wanna forget them, because I still aim to watch it no matter how much time has passed As for this season... I've been behind in getting to know whats going on >o< I'll have to look into them Lemme know if you are excited for any so I can look into it too ^^
  49. 1 point
    A new Hero rises from the depths of IKEA. Abandoned as a child in the endless maze of furniture he learned to be come more like them. Eventually becoming more chair than made he finally found his way out into the world. He spends His days as a simple chair in various places but at night he rises the seat crime in there cells. The wooden crusader will never stand be for thoughts to fall in his wake but will go till all the villainous toes are stubbed and have been thwarted. He is the hero none wanted but we all deserve. He is Chair-Man!
  50. 1 point
    Did you hear about the librarian who got caught stealing from the library? They caught him and booked him.
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