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  1. Hello everyone. It’s been some time, hasn’t it? I hope you all have been doing well and staying safe. This will be my last topic. I’ve already left the BSS Discord and will likely not return. I found I cannot engage in your community any more without feeling some degree of emotional pain, and so, I will take my leave. But I do have one last thing to discuss. One last swan song of a topic. That being, what do you do once all is lost? I no longer have friends. The ones I used to have don’t talk to me, even conversations with my “best friend” don’t last longer than 5 minutes and ar
  2. Lemme offer my 2¢. There are a lot, and I mean a LOT of promises we make to others that might never be fully realized. Heck, there might even be promises to yourself that you can’t keep. One of the double-edged swords about the human experience is our ability to change. And with change comes a different mindset, one that might not be able to keep a former promise. And you have to be willing to forgive yourself (or apologize to others) for not keeping that promise. Sometimes people will accept it. Some people won’t. And that’s also okay.
  3. One thing you can do, to avoid feeling like a topic is passed before you can put your input in, is reply to their post on the forum. One thing that I tend to keep in mind when I am providing advice is to understand that my 2¢ might not be worth much to the other person. But I should still provide it if they are open to hearing it, because it might help them reach their own conclusion on the topic. And that can be done even if you don’t know much about the topic. You just preface it with, “I might not fully understand this, however...” and typically people will listen regardless.
  4. As much as I want to agree that I shouldn’t be giving up on people yet, my head has way too much evidence to latch on that suggests otherwise. I’m well aware that it doesn’t work. It’s a temporary, fleeting distraction as most things are. The distinction between it and the rest is the freedom it permits me. I can step outside of the boundaries. Oh, I think about the future all the time, make no mistake. The difference is, I think of it from a realistic perspective. A bleak one, but realistic all the same. Like I said, I’m not going to be loved. I’m not going to be successful. I’m go
  5. Hello you all. Hope you are safe. Back with some sad stuff. Be warned I guess. I’ve done a lot of thinking, a bit of searching you could call it. And to be honest I’m not proud of what I’m finding. Know that some of what might look like excuses, isn’t meant to be as such. None of the stuff I’m mentioning is okay. I’m aware of this. Only reinforces what I’ve already come to believe. I really don’t care about people any more. I’ve tried to convince myself I do, tried to look for reasons to, but it just doesn’t happen. My heart no longer feels for other people. That empathy is gone
  6. Hello everyone! I hope you all are doing well and staying safe. This topic isn’t quite as heavy as my previous ones (whoo hoo, I have something positive to discuss) or at least, it isn’t heavy in the same way. Allow me to explain. With how chaotic the world is becoming, and the large gap of time at my disposal, I have decided to have another try at writing the story I’ve developed. I’ve thought up and wrote a lot of smaller projects, but this is THE story. Came to me in a dream as a child, mentally walked through the environments countless times, developed the characters to their pot
  7. Hello everyone. I hope you are well. My topic today is one of love; or rather, the lack thereof. So prepare yourselves, and let’s begin. For those who aren’t contextually aware, my last relationship (that lasted 4 years) ended about 5 months ago. It was mutual, we both didn’t love each other and that was that. Since then, I have found out numerous things that make me glad I made that choice, but that’s not what we’re talking about today. The heart of the issue is just that, my heart. And how it cannot feel love, yet longs for it, and all the mess in between. For a long time
  8. Hello you all. I’ve got a thought to digest. One that’s got me gritting my teeth. What is up with urgency? Allow me to give some context. A couple of weeks ago, I had one of the worst mental breakdowns that I have had in a long, long while. I won’t bore you with details, needless to say a lot of friends were worried about me. I did lose some friends as a result of this breakdown (to each their own) but that’s not necessarily what I am wanting to discuss today. What I want to discuss is the hypocritical nature of urgency. I can guarantee that a lot of us take things for gran
  9. ~To preface, this is a spliced topic from my previous post. Due to the nature of my topic being too long, I am separating the topics so they may be more easily covered.~ — One of the things that I’ve always struggled in my life has been making friends. When I was a child, I simply felt no need to; I was happy and had fun on my own. By the time I actually got around to wanting friends, everyone already had their groups. This is not the focus of this topic however. This struggle has made me very appreciative of the friends I do have; they’re one of the things that keeps me going.
  10. So, for the past couple of months, I’ve been in a really dark place, mentally. I’ve had struggles with college, lost friendships, worked a job I hate, and mutually parted ways with my girlfriend of four years. The medication for my chronic depression that I’ve been taking has not been working, and my attempts at seeking help via therapy haven’t gone over well. I’ve become abashedly cynical to myself, and a burden to the friends I care deeply about. I feel painfully lonely and frustrated that I am the one that has initiative in my friendships a majority of the time. I’m frustrated with mys
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