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i know i drew this in september, but i thought i could enter this in for todays prompt which is music. i worked very hard on this, so i hope you guys like it Ash~

im saying it on here, because ryan wouldnt answer me on the live stream. are cole and detective detective related? they look so much alike. same long blond hair. same green eyes. so whats their relationship?

Sugar Popped Sunshine

Hello everyone, i just joined so my name is Ash. I'm a very creative person. almost always reading, writing, drawing, or singing. I am in high school. anyway, after yesterdays live stream (or when i had to leave anyway) my parents started yelling at me. saying that i didnt get off fast enough. they continued yelling at me for a bit. then we ate dinner. i ate quickly -even though i wasnt hungry at all- then went to my room to write this (im writing this on paper and ill type it out when i can). i feel like im going to cry, because they yell at me practicly everyday. it doesnt help that they too

idk how to word this but... how do you release guilt that you know that you isnt your fault...

So, I had a panic attack again and I realized something because of it. I got worse fighting against them, because I kind of blocked myself from my emotion. Because I don't want to be a burden to anyone I tried to fight my emotions by myself mostly, but all I really did was building up a stronger mask, to hide my emotions even from myself. I still get overwhelmed and I'm still trembling deep inside of me right now. But I can't even try to reason with myself somehow, because I don't know why I feel like that currently. One part of my mind is doing the thinking, while the other is break

I've always wanted to be comforting. I've always wanted to be loving. I've always wanted to be mature. People like the ones in this community are comforting, And I've found plenty of comfort in Ryan and Joe. I wish to be a source of comfort for others, Just like how this community gives me comfort. I've done a lot of things I regret in my past. I've hurt people out of fear of being hurt, As well as other reasons. I have difficulty loving myself and forgiving myself for those things. It's hard to do so, Especially when I know that there are probably people who haven't

A little low-effort thing I made... I say "low-effort" because the drums are the same throughout the song (as well as the bass, which I set way too loud lol) I like how the first 40-ish seconds turned out though! ^^ It's titled "reflect" because I feel like cinematic/orchestral sounds (like the ones at the end) are some of the most emotional and deep sounds. Coming up with a title for this was hard lol

Hiya, my friend had a surgery a few days ago and I still haven't heard from him. I'm really worried, because he hasn't responded. what should I do? I know I should just stop worrying but its really bothering me, because he's also my crush....

I have had two times in my life where I have been so absorbed in “wanting” a particular girl. It has always started being a relationship where we both benefit from being around each other, but always turns into me depending on them for my identity. I become so absorbed in the fact that I “like” them, that I want to move beyond just friendship. But it has always gone very quickly from actually loving them, to selfish desire to “have” them and be in a relationship with them. Most of the time, it turns south about the time that I go to tell them that I “like” them, but it gets progressively m

So... I ended up falling in love with someone online... The problem with this is, I have a boyfriend... I don't want to cheat on my boyfriend, that would be the worst thing to do ever. I want to be honest with my feelings... but if I'm really being honest, my love for my boyfriend had... mostly faded even before I met this other person. And I don't really know 100% what I feel for this other person, and neither does he. He was the first to confess, but he said he wasn't quite sure about his feelings yet so we decided to stay friends. But the thing is, I don't think I can handle

So, I have major anxiety towards school... this makes it very difficult to focus on tasks related to school, since whenever I try to think about doing homework or schoolwork my thoughts jumble in my head and I cannot think thoughts alone- at least not about school. I've tried everything to help me focus in school, but it seems everything stops working after a bit or doesn't even work at all- and we're back to square one, except the problem has gotten worse since the last "solution". Normally, I'd ask someone to keep me accountable and keep me focused, since I cannot do that mysel

This is my first year in high school, which is kind of scary for me. For years i've just done school and then sit and play video games or watch anime, neither of which are productive. Lately, i have been wanting to actually do something, like write stories, or make art. I don't have many friends at the moment, since i haven't really met anyone at my new school due to Corona. My point with that is i've had no one i guess to show my work to. I have serious commitment issues when it comes to things like this. Whether it be because i don't see progress or that i get inside my own head and tell mys

For years I've been struggling on what to perceive as my purpose. Lately, I feel I have found it; to inspire and make people happy. I want to be a creator, an entertainer, someone who gives people general support through content. But... I'm not quite sure how to do that if that makes sense. My dream is to be an entertainer, but there are so many ways that one can be an entertainer, that I feel like nothing's original anymore? I want to be myself and help everyone around me, cuz that's just who I am and who I've always been. Static-P is an entertainer, and basically someone whom lately I've bee

How do you balance/differentiate between letting things go the way they're going or taking action to change it when it's something you need to take initiative on?

How can I help someone that I'm not near? I have lived a lot online and met a lot of wonderful people some I still remember others lost to the sands of time but the thing I notice is many of these treasure I have dug up for myself are damaged people who are hurt and people being abused from there parents family, friends, often times no where to turn to. It is hard to hear about how someone is being hurt and is used to being abused because there's no where they can run and all I can do is pray. Pray they will be safe and I do. But I wish I could do more. I hope other people who may be

Heyo, I'm having a bit of problems with mods in fallout 4. It's causing my Boss storyline to get messed up. For real tho. The problem is that I feel a bit down lately, I've been really good at school and stuff, but just feeling really depressed.

Its been about 2 months since the last time I posted here, when I spoke about being in love with my best friend. Joe wasn't here that week, so I'll give a quick summary. Basically, I'm in love with my best friend, but she is in a happy relationship, and has been for about 3 years. I have absolutely no intention of even attempting to get in the way of that, I just want the pain I feel from it to stop. She's happy how things are, and it would wrong for me to selfishly mess things up for my own gain. I recieved some great advice last time, (like when Ryan spoke about taking the path of love by d

This is so good

Hello everyone! It has been a while since I wrote on here. A lot has happened for one I have started a new job at a pizza place called (NDP)"Next Door Pizza". So far it's going good and the pay is good, but I really miss working at (ENT)Eats-N-Treats and it sucks that it is not open during the winter. I have been trying not to compare NDP to ENT but it is so hard because at NDP I feel so out of place and it doesn't feel like a family unit, unlike at ENT. Also at NDP I always feel talked down to and I don't really feel equal or welcome, when I know that isn't true. I feel like that is my anxiet

I see this fan page is very quiet.